Joshua 1:9 Enjoying the process. Taking over my chaos one day, one prayer, & one sip of coffee at a time.
Joshua 1:9 Enjoying the process. Taking over my chaos one day, one prayer, & one sip of coffee at a time.
“A little extra sleep, a little more slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest—” Proverbs 24:33 😴 Someone asked me where I’ve been lately. Go to my NEW blog post to find out! I know- it’s been a while! 🤗LINK IN BIO
“Faith shows the reality of what we hope for; it is the evidence of things we cannot see.” Hebrews 11:1 ✨Faith. What is faith? We say it, we have shirts that say it, we have tattoos that say it, but do we know it? Do you truly LIVE it out? How much do we REALLY trust God? Do you live it out for others in their hard times and then question it when the tables are turned onto us? What if God told you to do something TOTALLY CRAZY. Would you do it? Would you jump and trust him fully? Would you not just believe, but know he will stay faithful? Would you turn your whole life upside down if you heard him say “GO! I GOT YOU, GO!!”? ✨JUMP TODAY! Have TRUE FAITH. Start what he’s been calling you to start. Live the way he’s been calling you to live. Start over. Keep going. BELIEVE WHAT HE SAYS IS TRUE. And know that he will never fail you.
• I have caught myself saying “this season isn’t forever” a lot lately. I think it’s because I keep praying and wanting more. Then I heard God say “you have everything right now.” I don’t want to forget that I’ve prayed for this season for so long. I don’t want to look back on the years when my children were little and feel like I rushed this time away. I’m making a point this week to slow down and soak up these little moments. ✨✨Here’s a few steps I plan on taking time to slow down with my kids with our busy schedule: • EAT DINNER AS A FAMILY- Rushing around in the car most nights, but this week I want to make a point to have scheduled family dinner time. • GAME NIGHT EVERY NIGHT- After baths and before I put them to bed I’m going to play a game with them. It might be Uno, hide and seek (Lainey’s fav ), a board game- whatever they pick! • UNPLUG- the time between picking them up from school and bed time I plan on staying off my phone and no TV this week. CRAZYY, but this time with them is so necessary. What can you do this week to slow down and appreciate your current season?! Comment below 👇🏼
Couldn’t wait to pop on here after the fun day we had and post our cute family pumpkin patch picture we take every year. THIS IS THE BEST ONE I GOT. Things clearly didn’t go as planned 😂 The best thing motherhood has taught me is to go with the flow. Plans change, things don’t ever go the way you think they will, and you have to go with it. Forever laughing at this picture.
REMIND YOURSELF TODAY THAT YOU ARE: chosen. enough. forgiven. worthy. beautiful. fearless. loved. ✨✨Say it till you know it. You are worth such amazing things. The lord has BIG plans for you. You’re worth that freedom. You’re worth the promotion. You’re worth the greatest love. You’re worth far more than you can ever imagine.
Thankful for a God who knows when I need nights like these. ✨✨ It always amazes me when he meets me right where I am and shows me how good he is to us. I felt super overwhelmed & was doubting my motherhood today, but the night ended with happy kiddos who just wanted to cuddle and to belly laugh with me. Who else did he show up for today?? 🙋🏻♀️ comment below with your blessings!👇🏼
There is a promise That points beyond my failure There is a still voice To silence all my fears Even the worst of my mistakes Are miracles in the making •••••••••••• This new song by @elevationworship has had me in my feelings the last few days. At the age of 20 I found out I was pregnant and I was beyond terrified. I had dropped out of college, I was lost, and going through a breakup. Now here I was pregnant and feeling like a complete failure. Everyone around me told me that my life was over and how hard I had just made my life. Little did they know that God had his hands in it all and that my life was just beginning. Did I grow up faster than a lot of my friends? Yes. Did it make me struggle financially? Yes. But this little boy gave me a whole new meaning of life. He gave me a whole new reason to be successful. This little boy gave me a tiny glimpse of how much I was loved, and he taught me how to love. This was SEVEN YEARS AGO and I can’t imagine a day without my miracle, without my son. I look back and realize that during this time I heard God REALLY talk to me for the first time. It was the first time in my “adult” life that I prayed real prayers. In this season I felt God’s presence like no other. ✨ The Lord takes every single moment, every single season and can turn it for your good! No matter what society thinks, your friends/family think, or even what YOU think of your “failures”, He knows and they are no mistakes. Rest in knowing that his plans are far bigger than what you can possibly imagine. There is nothing that can change his love for you. Miracles are in the making!
This picture popped up on my phone memories today and my heart shattered. This was me two years ago.💔 Two years ago I was a stay at home mom. I was very blessed with good sleeping babies, but I could have slept all day every day. It took every single ounce of energy for me to do the bare minimum for my children, let alone my home, or myself. I constantly felt like the worst wife, the worst mother. I told myself over and over again that I was a failure. I hated myself. I weighed 87lbs because it made me sick to eat. I was anxious about everything. Depression was winning and I didn’t want to live. My heart breaks for this woman. For the one who was lost, sad, lonely. For the mom who felt unworthy, unloved, broken. I’d give anything to be able to look at her and tell her that she wouldn’t be like that for forever. ✨ Girl, you’re going to be ok. You can and you will find love, a love bigger than anything you can imagine. You’re brave. You’ll find out that you’re stronger than you know. When you surrender to Christ, you will be forever changed. It’s not going to be easy. You will have to learn how to trust him, you’ll have to work at it every day, but you’ll find that this life is beautiful and so are you. Through his love you’ll find yourself. You’ll laugh and smile again. You will learn to love who you are and be excited for the future. I promise, you’re going to be ok.
9.19.91 💕 9.19.19 I’ve been looking forward to this birthday since I was a little girl. I always thought this date would be a special one. Cheers to 28! I can’t wait to see what the Lord does this year!
It’s incredible to me how many times the Bible tells us not to be afraid. Today l sat down and flipped to a random page and yelled out loud for God to give me a word. “DO NOT BE AFRAID.” I read those four words, shut my Bible, and sat in silence for a while. I trust the Lord’s plans.... don’t I? Why is he telling me this? Lately, I’ve been in this weird season. I feel like I’m stuck in an uncomfortable unknowing. I feel like I’m constantly drowning. Lately, life has felt a little more uncomfortable. It’s been hard to come on here and be so positive. I’ve been praying that this season is close to an end. I feel like I’m living in a never ending Ohio winter! 😂 forreal, someone get me outta here! DO NOT BE AFRAID! These words keep coming back to me. My current season IS hard, but I know that I don’t want to be afraid. I’m clinging onto the Lord’s promise that he has plans for me. I’m trying my best to embrace the good in this season, I really am. I’m not on here to complain. I know I have so much to be grateful for, and I truly am grateful. This is for you if you’re feeling tired, if you’re feeling like you’re running in circles and can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. You’re not alone. Keep pushing through and don’t give up. Don’t run back to what you were used to just to be comfortable. Don’t forget that His promise still stands. We have a faithful God. You don’t have to fear when you know the Lord is in control. I don’t have to fear because God has plans for me. You are becoming, things are shifting. I know it won’t be like this for long.
It’s been so long! I haven’t forgotten about my blog, I promise. I have been wrapped up in my babies, navigating college, and praying about my heart. I had to dig deep to remember my “why” for this blog. I don’t want to be known for just my divorce, I’m so much more than that, but it is a part of me. It’s my story and how Christ lead me to seek him. I’m proud of who I am and who he is calling me to be. When you feel like you’re done, God isn’t done yet. Divorce is hard, heartbreak is hard, job loss is hard, losing a family member is hard, addiction is hard, but there is a beautiful life waiting for you on the other side of surrender. I am living proof that the transformational love of Christ is real. Your heart can change, your life can change. STAY STRONG. We can get through this together.
I rededicated my children to Christ on Sunday. The emotions of doing this on my own as a single mom was a bit overwhelming. I was overwhelmed by so much LOVE! Love from our church community and love from God who has taken care of us during this season. I’ve backed off on writing on this page because I want to make sure that I know that MY DIVORCE DOESN’T DEFINE ME. Yes, it’s a part of my testimony, but I’m not just “that divorced mom.” I’ve moved on from that part of my life and I hope you know that you can too. Your divorce won’t define you for forever. Hopefully I won’t be a single mom for forever 😂 (in God’s time ). I’m honored when you all message me on how I’ve help you start to heal. I will continue to try to be as open and honest about our CRAZY life, but I won’t let this season define who I am anymore.
Let’s not get things twisted ✨ I don’t think my last post is about me failing. As a matter of fact, I’m thriving more than ever, but I’m also self aware. I AM BUSY! I DO take on a lot and I’m proud of myself for working so hard every day. Can I keep on living in fast forward- I could, but I don’t want to. I want to slow it down and see the beauty of what the Lord is doing in my life, because it is BEAUTIFUL! Is my life hard- sure is. But isn’t everyone’s? I’m here to let you know that you’re not alone, that life gets better, and that there is an amazing life out there waiting for you. I’m thankful for a God who gives us another chance to live a life we never thought we could have. & I’m thankful to be living on that other side of life. Just out here helping you EMBRACE YOUR CHAOS & LOVE YOUR LIFE. PS- LION KING WAS 👏🏼😍😅
I’ve really been struggling lately with the realization that I CAN NOT DO IT ALL. There! I said it. I CAN’T. 🙄 I’ve taken so much pride in overworking myself to prove that I can and I’m tired. Being a single mother of two and working full time, taking care of my house, running errands, going to appointments.... I AM EXHAUSTED! So what do I do? I hear God telling me to go back to school- so I am 😂 FULL TIME COLLEGE. I start Monday. I keep telling myself that the Lord never calls you to do something and then leaves you stranded. I know that if I say yes to where he calls me that he will take care of us as he always does. This week I’ve been freaking out a little on how I can manage it all and then I went back to this post on my blog. I need rest. I needed to prioritize it all. I have done just that and come fall, some changes are being made to make my life easier, but I am still focusing on doing God’s work. I’m writing to remind you (and really myself ) that it’s ok to BREATHE. It’s ok to know when you’re doing too much and to take a break. It’s ok to not do it all. But when you hear God- GIRL, GO FOR IT! 👏🏼 IF YOU WANT TO READ THIS POST- link in bio.
#serveday2019 Today I got to serve along side of my church family as we prepared gift bags and wrote encouraging letters to families that have children in the cancer unit at @clevelandclinic 🎗 Our church did so many wonderful things around our city, but as a mother this just tug on my heart. Today wasn’t just a day to give, it was a day to reflect and put into perspective how “hard” my life is. I struggle as a full-time working single mother and I’m adding full-time college to my plate in the fall as well. I get anxious, overwhelmed, and I get caught up in our chaos. It’s hard, but we are SO BLESSED beyond measure. Humbled doesn’t even describe how I felt today. We are healthy, we are happy, and we are surrounded by so many people who love us. 🙏🏼 Please pray with me for these children & their families, pray for miraculous healing, and that they can see God in their storm.
The last few days I’ve been absent on here because I’ve been back to work and spending my evenings reflecting on God’s goodness and not on social media. I had no idea what this trip would mean to me and the emotions I felt as we stood on that beach for the first time in 16 months. ✨ When I was a stay at home mom, I would travel to Florida “often” to see my family. The last time I was there I had just announced my divorce (literally two days prior ), I hardly weighed 90lbs because I had anorexia due to depression, I was lost, scared, and broken. As I stood on the beach last week I was reminded how far the Lord has brought me. He has saved my life. God has led and continues to lead me into a life of freedom and purpose. Through this journey following Christ I have learned who I am to the core (the good, the bad, and most importantly- the WHY ). I have found happiness that I wish everyone could believe they are worthy of. The best thing I’ve ever learned in my life is to be silent and to listen to the Lord. To know when it’s him speaking and to follow it. Even if it sounds crazy, even if it’s scary, new, and completely out of your comfort zone. If I never listened to him calling me out of my darkness I wouldn’t be here. LISTEN TO HIM! SERIOUSLY!!! He is trying to lead you into the great things that he has planned for you. If I didn’t listen I wouldn’t know that I could take on this life. I wouldn’t know who I was, or how to ever be happy. I would be constantly searching for a purpose and I would have remained miserable. I guess what I’m trying to get at is TAKE THE LEAP. Legit RUN AND JUMP at his word. He will never fail you! Blessings are waiting for you to say YES to him. I promise with everything I have, that it is worth it!
WANNA TALK CHAOS?!? Flying with the kids with a 20 minute layover is NO JOKE. Let me tell you- I was SO proud of my son for remaining calm and RUNNING across the whole airport TWICE with a heavy backpack on. He was THE BEST teammate!! It’s cool to see your child act like that under pressure.Thankful that we made our flights and we are safely going home.
Florida has been such a treat! Watch out 👀 for our beach trip today!!! 🌴☀️ The last time we were here visiting my family I had just left my marriage, literally 2 days after. I weighed 87lbs, I was broken, lost, hopeful for a better future, but scared. Now, I’m here a whole new person. I’m here and I’m happy, healthy, and living an amazing life. It’s so exciting to share this “new” me with my family. God truly has exceeded all of my expectations and made this journey and incredible one. I can’t say this enough- there is such a beautiful life on the other side of heartbreak. I’m thankful for this journey and I’m excited to be right here right now.
Joshua 1:9 My son was so nervous for this flight. The plane was smaller than what we are used to and my daughter is no longer a lap child so he had to sit across the isle from us. I kept repeating Joshua 1:9 over and over to him. We held hands and prayed as we took off. After our flight, the flight attendant stopped me and showed me that she took this of us. I was so happy that she offered to send it to me. Thank you to @americanair for our safe flight! #americanairlines
It’s crazy to think that this time two years ago I was praying for my life now. I begged God to move mountains and to show me who I was supposed to be for myself and for my kids. Healing takes time. I hated when people would tell me that, but it’s true. It’s ok to not be ok today, but know that tomorrow you’re going to be way better off than if you would have stayed. Keep praying- he will move your mountains.
HAPPY MONDAY ☺️ Today is Lainey’s first day of school with me! I’m so excited to be able to see her throughout the day! She’s a little shy, but doing great. My heart is ready to explode. Counting each and every blessing! God keeps making a way for us! What are you thankful for today?! 👇🏼 TELL ME
I knew if I was going to write a blog I was going to be open about everything. That’s why it took me so long to start it. I’m going to be extremely honest. Today is my wedding anniversary. The day I planned for two years. I had my absolute dream day- and now I’m divorced. Today isn’t fun. I wanted to use this day as a reminder of how far I’ve come, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t emotional when I woke up this morning. Today I had to remind myself that just because our marriage didn’t work out that doesn’t mean I’m a failure. Just because I went through heartbreak doesn’t mean I’m broken. Being divorced doesn’t mean I’m incapable of love or worth having love. I’m worth all of those things, and so is he. Today I’m thankful that we have a good friendship for our kids. I’m thankful for our friends and families that supported us then and that support us now. Today is a hard day, but because of this day, we have TWO awesome kids! And because of this day, I became who I am today.
It’s bedtime for Lainey & Bunny. 😴 My heart hurts a little putting her to bed. I just want to snuggle her forever!!! I cannot believe how fast these kids are growing up. But today I got some great news. Starting Monday, Elaina will be joining me at work! I’ve been praying that there would be an opening for her class and finally the time has come. ☺️ I can’t wait to be where she is and to come visit her throughout the day. This is HUGE for me. A couple of posts ago I said that I feel like I don’t even know her because I’m always away from her, now we will be together!!!! Praise God! 🙌🏼 This mama is so happy tonight!
I’ve been open about my day to day struggles, laughs, and life in general. Lately, I’ve feel ACTUALLY good enough to say to myself that I would be ready for a relationship when the Lord blesses me. Knowing that it’s just an added blessing that’s a desire of my heart and not something I need. So I’ve been growing in that aspect in my life and learning more about myself and what I could bring to the table for someone else. I started listening to @kaitness Christian dating podcast @heartofdating and I’ve been taking in some pretty great advice. If you’re just confused as I am on how to date as a Christian and as an adult in general (literally I haven’t dated since I was 17 ) then totally check this girl out!!!!
Yesterday we visited our church in Columbus where we went before my divorce. We were covered in love from our favorite people and got to experience service at their new building. The message was exactly what I needed to remind myself how far I’ve come. Because I chose to live in Christ, I have taken down huge giants in my life. I was brought to tears remembering the old me. The woman that was lost, afraid, anxious, bitter, and incomplete is gone. During worship I felt so much emotion as I smiled and told God how thankful I am to be who I am now. If you are going through heartbreak, know it doesn’t last forever. There is a stronger, happier you at the end of this- I PROMISE!!!! It takes a long time, it took me years, but this new life is worth every single hard day. Knowing my true self through this season was and is worth every tear. And my relationship with the Lord is worth EVERYTHING!
Trying to take a cute pic & trying to make sure the kids aren’t running into the street. The struggle is #real ! 🌸 @eastontownctr is my favorite shopping place in #columbus ! There is so much to do for the kids and also very enjoyable for our family. We are back in our rooms taking #naps and then heading back out shopping for the evening. Anyone interested in our finds?!
Shopping in #Columbus is my favorite & matching with my girl is even better! AND THESE @oldnavy leopard print sandals that help us #twin are EVERYTHING!! After yesterday’s post I decided I was going to bend good quality time with my kids and do all of our favorite things that we used to do when we lived here. Check out my story throughout the day to see our favs of the day!!
I’m missing my kids today. Any other full time mamas feel like they miss out?! I know I do. 🙋🏻♀️ I feel guilty all the time. Most days I don’t even know who my daughter is because I never get to spend time with her. This week I took them to our towns parade and my heart was so happy. I live for these moments!!! I’m going to write a blog post on how I make the most of this season. How do you make the most out of your limited time?! Write your suggestions in the comments 👇🏼
I need you know that on the hard days you are doing just fine. You are exactly where the Lord wants you in this moment- in this season. You’re strong and your strength is building every day. You are an amazing mother. You are doing your best. You are going to be ok. Be excited in the now, be excited for the future- and just know, great things are coming. YOU’RE DOING BETTER THAN YOU KNOW 😊
All this cleaning after my basement was flooded. 🌊 Today I am thankful for @lovehomeandplanet ! I picked up this multipurpose cleaner spray at my local @target & it SMELLS LIKE HEAVEN! I love that #homeandplanetproducts are #vegan and I feel like they are so much safer to have around my children- A HUGE PLUS in my home! Also, they promote a better environment & their mission for a cleaner planet called #smallactsoflove I AM OBSESSED! & Did I mention the smell 😍
I AM LIVING THE LIFE I PRAYED FOR!! 💛new post up on the blog!!! Link in bio
Starting off my Sunday by serving! Being a part of what Christ is doing in this community and for his kingdom sets my soul on 🔥!!! Also had such a great time at small group after conversing with such great people who are so open to sharing their hearts. I’m excited to unwind a little bit before this week. REMINDER- you are in control of your busyness! Take time to reset, to rest, and to make your time intentional. 😁👏🏼
JUST DO STUFF THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY!!!!! Because I can’t have a puppy where I live, on occasion I go places to hold them and it makes my heart happy. It’s the little things.