songwriter/musician/various stomach problems
Ok, last night was... too great for words. Got to see @brandicarlile play all of Joni Mitchell’s “Blue” at the @laphil She sang her heart out as Joni and Elton John watched from the fourth row. Brandi said that “Little Green” was the song that made her fall in love with Joni’s music. Me too. I cried when she played this, and I don’t know if it was sadness or happiness or a mixture, but maybe that doesn’t matter. It made me feel something, and isn’t that all music is supposed to do? Brandi said it tonight: Joni is our Shakespeare. There’ll be icicles and birthday clothes and sometimes, there’ll be sorrow...
Been talking to a lot of people about authenticity lately and how important it is. So on my birthday, I wanna share a little piece of myself. 22 was kind of hard! One of my dearest friends told me that my openness and vulnerability is my best and worst quality, and she was right. I was an open book, but this year really taught me that maybe not everyone deserves to read all of my pages. Maybe boundaries are sometimes a good thing. Maybe there’s a difference between vulnerability and spilling your heart on the floor at someone’s feet. 22 was filled with growing pains, physical pain, heartbreak, and more tears than I’ve ever cried. I was forced to face trauma I’d buried; it was terrible, even though I know it was for the best. I’m still in it, but at least I’m letting myself feel it and process. 22 wasn’t all bad though! There was so much good. I moved to LA, wrote over 30 songs, played music with lots of people, found a dream apartment, laughed at lots of tweets, hugged my cat a bunch, loved people deeply. I just want 23 to be a year where I continue to try to love myself as much as I can. Two steps forward, one step back.
bitch don’t steal my man 🤪 @delacey
i know i need to stop playing my favorite guitar thru my shitty old keyboard amp but i’m poor so bear with me for some monday night jazz baby 🎷🐛 #tilltherewasyou #iluvdissong #pickupjazz #fundmyguitaramp
maybe i’ve been watching too many @rickeythompson videos but HONESTLY!!!! WE ARE DONE SETTLING FOR ANYTHING LESS THAN WHAT WE DESERVE!!!!! if they don’t wanna feed you raspberries on the beach, CALL THAT UBER BABY! YOU ARE A FIVE-STAR MEAL!!!
Constantly trying to find ways to be more vulnerable when it comes to showing my cat son love. I’m here pouring out my heart and he remains unaffected. It’s hurtful, to put it lightly. Anyways #babynowthatifoundyou @alisonkrauss 🧀
ONE YEAR SEIZURE FREE! Throwing a party... no strobe lights allowed!!! . . . . . In all seriousness tho, this is a huuuuuge frickin milestone for me. A year ago, I was in Antwerp feeling incredibly hopeless and frightened. The diagnosis of epilepsy in February of 2018 really changed my life. I was fired from a cruise job, not allowed to drive (lmao ), and felt like my general future was falling apart. Was put on various meds that made me crazy until I convinced my doctor to let me try medical marijuana; I haven’t had a seizure since. Now I Venmo request my mom once a month for “Mary Jane 4 My Brain” : ) here’s to many more years of making my parents fund my drug usage hehe
just enjoying a quiet evening alone, singing my favorite @michellebranch jam! 😤🌬
Did a little interview with @voyagelamag ! So grateful to be featured in their “Hidden Gems” series. I’ve been in LA less than 6 months, and sometimes it’s definitely terrible, but things like this make me feel EXCITED! Here’s a little piece of my story... and a link to my most likely unfunny meme-flooded twitter. Link in bio. 🌻
If you don’t know, now you know: I stan the @jonasbrothers I quite literally LIVED for these boys from the ages of 11-16. Saw them live 8 times, peed myself two of those times, sobbed uncontrollably, and frightened my dad with a massive @joejonas poster right next to my bad. I was writing Jonas fan fictions before I was writing songs. And let me tell you... those fan fictions got weird. So if you think I’m not gonna post a cover from their new album.... RETHINK. #happinessbegins
Yesterday marked 5 months in LA. It’s been a wild ride with a lot of pain, but I’ve written so many songs with so many amazing people and I think that makes it all worth it. I’ve got a long way to go, but I feel grateful to have a passion that drives my life, even if it tends to veer me off course. 🚘
God dammnnn, last night was so FUN! Thank you @thevoicecasting / @lukewademusic for having me as a featured artist at the open mic! I haven’t sang without accompanying myself in so long and it was fun to FEEL LIKE A LIL ROCKSTAR! This is Fire by the queen of the earth @sarabareilles Huge shoutout to @julianxavier and @jennakalista for singing back ups with me... I know you can’t see them in this video, but THEY’RE HERE AND THEY ARE WONDERFUL!
Serving up “marionette who came into your life, killed your family, and then seduced you” vibez :- )
When @sarabareilles played this song at The Troubadour a few weeks ago, I felt it so darn deeply. This new album is special. 📝🧟♂️ #poetrybydeadmen #amidstthechaos
Ugh. Performing makes me so happy. Thank you to everyone who came out last night! Here’s a lil clip of a new one I wrote with @thisislorencole I’m telling you... girls named Lauren... we got it going on. 🐬
HAPPY MONDAY FOLKS! I’m playing my first LA gig tonight! @monday_monday_at_hotel_cafe is an amazing weekly showcase and I go on at 8 PM. Gonna play some new songs that I’ve written out here! Will probably make at least two jokes that aren’t funny on any level. Come hang out. 🥰
Wow. So into this album, @wherearetheavocados Excuse my crazy hair and sweatiness, I moved into my new apartment 5 minutes ago and immediately went to learn this song cause I’m heckin’ obsessed. I need to unpack. Heck. #mystrangeaddiction also I messed up the lyrics SORRY
3 weeks since my EP came out and I moved to LA. I’m a happy lady. I like 2019 so far. Except I really miss my cat... he’s building a very strong relationship with my mother and I am #concerned #myson #cometoLAnow #iloveyou
(ft. @snoopdogg )
Yesterday was so amazing. Today is amazing too. I live in LA now... let’s make some music 🎤🎸☀️
LITTLE RAIN IS IN THE WORLD! I’ve been waiting for this day for sooooo long. Link is in bio! Thank you to @reedoburrito11 , @andreberniermusic , @diegounchained , @thebenyoungblood , @zanderambrose and @sabelmusic for adding your incredible musical talent. Thank you Connor Golden for the beautiful masters. Thank you @adamikner for creating over half of these songs with me; I love you and our songwriting. Thank you @joseit for creating such incredible artwork. Thank you thank you thank you @cartervailmusic for taking on this project and bringing my songs to life and spending so many hours in the studio with me. You’re an incredible talent and I’m so glad we created this EP together. And thank you to anyone who listens to these songs. They are so special to me. ❤️
My EP comes out TOMORROW!!!!! I can’t believe it’s actually gonna be out in the world. I am so forkin’ excited 🍴this is me anxiously waiting
SIX DAYS UNTIL LITTLE RAIN! There is, of course, a story behind the name of my EP. @adamikner and I wrote a song called “Rain” a while back that didn’t make it onto the EP, but the idea behind the song was that everyone needs a little rain. Everyone needs a little sadness and pain in their life in order to fully appreciate the happiness and love. This EP carries a fair amount of sadness, but I learned from every experience that inspired these songs. I needed those experiences to grow. I’m still growin’ ... but yeah 6 days and I’m EXCITED!
I just don’t know how not to... @danandshay ☃️
My EP, Little Rain, is coming out January 11th!!!! I am EXCITED!!! 🥳
Happy Friday! My new single, I Knew Better, is now available on all streaming platforms! Link in bio ⬆️ thank you @cartervailmusic , @andreberniermusic , @reedoburrito11 , @zanderambrose and @thebenyoungblood for making the music come to life. And the biggest shoutout to my co-writer and sweaty, @adamikner Can’t wait to be in LA with you. ❤️
A little snippet of my new single, “I Knew Better”, coming out on Friday! Wrote this one with my favorite co-writer via FaceTime last year @adamikner 💔
These numbers may seem small but 2,000 people have listened to my music this year and that’s really amazing and I’m so excited to put out this EP and make my move to LA 😉🌴
I Knew Better, December 14th. ❄️
Saturdays are for @norahjones and hiding in the basement.
2 days 🍚🍚
My single comes out in a week. Hehe.
I’m shakingggg omfg met my incredible ginger dad Conan O’Brien tonight he signed my speech therapy vocal cord diagram and he growled at me I’m set for life I love you dad @teamcoco
My new single, You’d Rather, is coming out November 16th! I’m sooooo excited to share this music. Album cover created by my incredibly talented fellow redhead cousin @joseit ❤️