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⚠Working on a new novel!⚠ 🌿 New chapters every tuesday and friday! 💐-Feedback is appreciated!
And thats a wrap(: I hope you guys enjoyed this story! ai know it took like a year to finish. I'm sorry. I know that sucks. But next story im writing i swear, i will be posting AT LEAST once a week(: bear with me guys! Comment suggestions and comments❤
"im absolutley in love with him." Drews face descriped a look of pure dissapointment. He knew it, he had known it all along. "I'm sorry." i grabbed his soft hands, only for them to be jerked off. "Go-G-Goodbye Star." his hands fell to his sides as he walked to his door. My entire life ha just collapsed in the course of a couple hours. And now, the love of my life was driving away from me, forever. I walked back to Jack's house, willingly, because i knew i had no where to go. i looked like a mess, and obnoxious men honked at me from the streets. I had ti get there quickly. i began running, however i realized that woudnt make a difference. Then i started to sob. realizing, this was it. There is no one waiting for me on either end.
woop➡He placed his warm hands on my arms and lifted me up. "What-What are you doing?" I looked straight into his eyes. His deep, glistening, green? (i forgot what color drew's eyes are😳 ), eyes stared back at me. All those memories with him, all the kissing, and laughing and i love you's stared back at me. As i tangled my gaze into his motionless eyes, our entire relationship stared back at me. Everything. Everything i had ever felt towards him, every ounce of love i gave to him. Every intertwining fingers and giggles. Every movie date and shared ice cream. Every stupid fight and romantic make ups. every "they're still together?". every promise we had made to each other. every soft kiss he had planted on my forehead. every whisper telling me i was the best thing that had ever happened to him. And suddenly, as quick at it flashed back at me, it all demolished itslef and crumbled down as i let the 5 words slip out and into the cold, crisp air.
its short sorry, i wanted to post😔👉I car drove by and honked at my red, puffy eyed face. i didnt bother to look up. As i was leaving Jack's house, i had tumbled across the sidewalk, only to fall down a couple houses down bawling on the grass. What had happened with my life? I heard a click of the car door, and heavy footsteps tumbling toward me. i coudnt move. i felt numb. "Star." the sweet voice bursted through my mind's layer of confusion and brought me back to reality. "Drew." i faintly answered.
what should happen next? Shoult Star tell drew? Is jack the one for star? or is the drew the guy? Im trying to wrap up the story. maybe in a couple weeks/ a month. Should i start writing a fanfic? or a love story with like 10 people, like a big story? i want to make you guys happy, so please dont hesistate to comment😋 thanks yall for your support, i wouldnever write if it wasnt for you. sorry for my big break, this time im staying! but i need feedback! comment, tag your friends, tell the neighbor! 😘 until then, -Taylorr❤
i pulled back. oh no. no no no. Jack stared at me with his deep, cyrstal blue eyes. i rose from to bed nervously. what just happened. "I think i should go, Jack." i lied. i wanted to lay there right beside him, with his arms around me, kissing those soft lips. "this isnt right." i whispered. He grabbed my small hand and pushed me back onto the bed, quickly placing his elbow over my side. "Star, we cant keep pretending this isnt real." he said plainly. He wasnt trying to be romantic, he was sating a fact. He knew from the very start i had feelings for him. He knew that one kiss in the dressing room would be my breaking point. A grin slowly spread across his face as he realized i was leaning in. no star. why are you leaning in? stop. stop it! i coudlnt help myself. i was following what my heart wanted, not was was right. As i was busy nervously wrecking my mind thinking about this situation, Jack had mashed his lips into mine, blurring all my previous thoughts. Those lips blurred out right from wrong and all i could see was myself kissing him back. i gave him one, slow, passionate, last kiss before i pulled back. "i cant do this jack." i slid under and out of his tight grasp. " i have to go." i nervously whispered. "star...." he took my hand, refusing to let me go. "This was a mistake." i strenly spoke. "no it wasnt. you know it wasnt." a tear slid down my cheek, "JACK," i screamed, "LET GO OF ME." i yanked my hand away from his soft fingers. "Im in love with drew. not you." the sunken lie blurted out of my mouth. you're lying star. he let go of my hand and fell back onto the bed in surprise. i was doing this to save him from geting any more hurt. i coudnt play him like this. "goodbye jack." i cried. as i hurried out his house, i burst into tears. i revised all the things a said and replaced it with just 3 simple words i could have said in my mind. " i love you." i whispered into my hand.
I looked into his eyes, and could tell something was going on. "Star...Yesterday, after you fell asleep..." he started. i I grabbed his hands over the table, to show him i cared. "I was layig in bed thinking about you, when i remebered what jack did. that asshole....i still coudnt believe it. All the anger and hatred built up in me exploded, it all exploded star. I...I-I went to his house." As the words left his mouth, i could feel my body become tense. No. No drew. "I regret everything star." i got up and stared at him. No. "Star i had to." he cried. I shaked my head. "You know he has a problem. You KNOW about the syndrome." I coudnt force myself to believe what he had just done. Drew had gone to fight a kid who he knew coudnt fight back. "Drew..." i stared at him in disbelief. He looked at me, with a pleeding look on his face. I turned around and ran to Jack's House, ignoring Drew's cried behind me. Jack had made a mistake, a horrible mistake. But he is my bestfriend, or at least was. i didnt care who saw me, i just ran. i kept running, without looking back. All I was thinking about was Jack. His parents were out of town, i was 100% sure he was alone, with no one to help him. Finally, i got to his house, and burst into the door."Jack!" i yelled, looking around for him. "JACK!" i screamed. i ran to his room in a desperate search. I cried out as i saw the shirtless limp body against the bed. "Jack!" i screamed as i rushed over to him. A black eye, a bloody mouth, a bruised chest , and cuts all up his arms were what was left of him. "What the fuck happened?" i yelled at him. "You know what happened." he groaned. "Jack..." my anger settled down and my pity built up. "Its not your fault Star. None of this is your fault." i felt a kick in my heart. None of "this". I looked down at his bloody face. "Im so sorry Star."
okay. so i decided to continue with my current story. thats what most of you picked and thats what im hapoy with. i have a really mind messing chapter coming up(: be excited!!! gonna go make the polyvire picture for the outfit and then i'll post it woohoo(:💚💚
i woke up with mascara all over my cheeks and my phone still in my hand. i checked the clock, and it read "10:31" in big green numbers. i threw on a nude oversized sweater, a pair of cut up shorts, a plain belt, my short golden bow necklace, brown thong-sandals, and let my naturally messy hair down. suddenly, reality hit me right in the head and i fell back onto my bed remembering yesterday. i forced myself not to cry again and walked downstairs. i sniffed the air and suprisingly smelled pancakes. i walked into the kitchen and there stood a smiling father, and some lady with nice blonde hair and pink lips. she looked at if she was about 38, the same age as my father. "um. hi." i grumbled to her and my dad. "good morning star! this is miranda, she and i have been dating for a few days. she came over this morning and was nice enough to make pancakes." i didn't buy it. "occupation?" i questioned her. "im a kindergarten teacher at a christian shcool." i grumbled. "any kids? divorced?" "no kids, and im happily divorced, and currently in a relationship." she smiled at me and kissed my dads hand. i managed to smile. she seemed nice, and not a total bitch like rebecca was. suddenly, i felt a vibration in my pocket and answered the call. "star. im outside. we need to talk." drew's sweet voice stated. "o-okay." i said my goodbyes and walked outside. Drew was standing outside, with his skateboard, his favorite tank top, and his british underwear i had given him as a joke. and then, right smack dab in the middle of his chest, lay
i had quickly changed out of the bathing suit, gathered my things, and called a taxi to take me hone. when i unlocked the door, the house was quiet and empty, so i ran upstairs and colapsed onto m bed and bursted out crying with the tears i had been holding back. i just sat there, laying on my bed, crying my fucking eyes out on one stupid mistake someone else had made. i reached for my phone in my back pocket and started to dial drew's number. i was crying so hard i coudn't breathe. he was my boyfriend, and i loved him, i coudn't keep a lie from him. i had to tell him. with my hands trembiling and my crys louder than ever, i held the phone up to my ear. after 3 long rings, he picked up. "Star! STAR! what happened? STAR!" he worriedly asked once he heard my bawling. "babe..." i fored myself to mutter. "who te fuck did this to you?" i coudn't help but cry even harder because how worried he was about me. and what do i do in return? i let someone guy kiss me. "drew. im sorry." i cried. "babe you NEED to tell me what happened. i will love you no matter what." he whispered. he's lying. he will never forgive me, and my life will be ruined. "jack kissed me." i finally said it. the three words that will be the end of me. i waited for yelling and humiliation, but all i heard was quiet breathing from the other end. "im sorry drew. i didn't kiss him back, but i should have seen it coming. i know you wont forgive me, and you dont have to. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry and i love you. i love you so much." i manged to tell him as my crys became louder. he still didn't reply. "i love you too." he finally said after what seemed like eternity. i didn't understand. "i live you star. i love you to the moon and back. i love you more than there are people in the world. i live you more than than all the sand grains in the ocean. i love you mre than the entire galaxy. star, you are my life, my other half. i will always love you no matter what, from now until eternity." he said. my body was frozen. i was confussed, furious, and depressed. i still coudn't process what he had just said.
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Jack, my best friend, had kissed me, turning me into a cheater. I had cheated on my first boyfriend. i pulled away before i kissed him back, and glared at him. "Jack....how, how could you?" a tear slid down my cheek. how could he have done this to me? i just lost my bestfriend, and probably my boyfriend too. he tried to say something but no sound came out of his lips. "get out." i whispered. "GET. OUT." i said louder. "just, leave. i'll find a way home. goodbye, jack." i coudn't even look at him. as he left the stall, i slumped to the floor and buried my head in my hands. a simple gesture had just ruined two relationships. how had i let this happen? i shoudnt have let Jack enter the stall, thats was like adding wood to a unkept fire. what he had done was just a way to mess up my life again, and make everything turn upside down. i had just lost my bestfriend to a mistake he made. what seemed like a fun day going to the mall had turned into the worst day of my life.
As the months passed, my relationship with drew grew stronger. my friendship with Jack increased incredibly. my father divorced rebecca and was slowly recovering and getting his life back together. my mother returned to rehab and came out as good as ever. my life was finally piecing its way back together. Yesterday night, Drew had told me he loved me and we ate strawberries on the same hill we had our first date on. it was magical. Unfortunatley, today Drew had to go visit his grandmother. "I'll see you tommorow boo." i hung up the phone and called jack. "HEYYYYYY! vas happenin? can you hang out today?" i laughed when he answered. me and jack started to become friends that day he made me cry. We realized we were exactly alike. over the months, we had learned to love, and appreciate each other. he was like the broter ive always wanted. he was my best friend, someone i could always turn to. "we could go to the mall...?" he replied. "sounds great! meet me in 10?" "see you then sargant muggle." we had made up that nickname after watching a harry potter marathon. i ran upstairs and put on a striped strapless top, a pair of distressed shorts, and my white allstars drew had bought me. i put on my bracelets from the town fair and a striped nautical ring. i quickly curled my hair with the curling wand my mother had bought me, and small sparkling studs. i clippe my bangs back, and added a natural gloss and eyeshadow. the past months, my mother started to teach how to curl and straighten my hair, and bought me an entire new wardrobe with her chrismas bonus. i had strted to dress like a girl and my self confidence grew. *KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK* "COMING!" i yelled. i grabbed my backpack and ran downstairs to
As the day ended, me and Drew climbed down the ladder and he kissed my cheek goodbye. i told him ill see him tommorow, and he slowly walked away. Today was wonderful. I walked inside my house, to find an empty living room, a dirty kitchen, and the smell of smoke filled the air. as i walked upstairs, i could hear yelling coming from my father's room. "WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?" he screamed at Rebecca. "I DONT KNOW. MAYBE YOUR EX-WIFE?" she yelled. i could literally give less than a fuck about what happened between them. all i need is a roof and top ramen, and i have a job and an actual mother. i smiled. maybe it would be good gor them to separate. the only reason i am forced to stay with my dad is because combining the money Rebecca makes with his, it ends up to be more money than my mother's. she was in rehab ehen the divorce was taking place, so obviously they chose my father though. without the bitch, my mother would technically make more money than him and i would be able to live with her. thats all that i need. Iwalked to my room and fell onto the bed. before i knew it, i was fast asleep dreaming about living in a mansion with drew and my mother.
i turned around. Oh no. "Jack." He stared at me with a hurt expression. "Star." He looked like he was about to cry. or ha been crying. "Where have you been?" i stumbled on my words. "I heard you and Mr. Manewhore are going out." if anyone else had said it, i would have punched them in the face. But when Jack said it, he seemed so...innocent. "I-i-i-" i had no idea what to say. "you totally blew off lunch to ditch with him. And Star, i know you've been avoiding me. Staying in class longer. Ducking behind the doors. Hiding in the bathroom. If you dont like me, just tell me. i thought we were going to be friends." i could feel my eyes start to water. I had barely known this guy, and he didn't even know me. But his words. They were just so real. I don't know how to explain the feelings i was feeling at that moment, they didnt make any sense. This random guy, who doesnt even know my last name, is making me cry just by saying i ditched him for another guy. "I-i'm sorry." i cried. his face relaxed. "no, star, dont cry." he lifted my chin up with his finger. "star, please dont cry. w-why are you crying?" i coudnt answer. i didnt even know myself why i was crying. i had no idea what was going on. "this is silly, but i just feel so bad for what i did after you said those things." i had no idea what i was doing. i should he telling this guy i was taken and i should get to class, bu instead i was letting him hug me. what the hell was happening? dis he hippnitize me? i only knew one thing at the moment. i never wanted that hug to end. "we're still friends, Jack." I smiled and looked at him. "okay." he forced a smile. "friends." he murmured. "see you later?" "yeah, Star, ill see you later." i turned around and started walking towards class. Everything was fine right? everything was going to be okay, right? no hurt feelings, right? wrong. wrong, wrong wrong. because behind me,stood a boy with a hurt expression on his face, and his hand curled up into a fist.
when we walked into the cafetiria, everyone turned their heads towards us and stared at me or our hands which were tightlt pressed against each other. we awkwardly made it to the lunch line. when Drew wasnt looking, a blode chick passes by me and whispered, "you'll regret every last second." what was so horrible about Drew? it seemed like every fucking person in this shcool hated him. i looked at him nervously. he looked at me and smiled the sweetest smile. how could people be so abnoxious and rude? i didn't care was other people thought of him. Drew was my amazing boyfriend, and he was perfect. we finally got up to te front of the line. ergh. all they had was chicken or beef. i told the lady i'd pass and served myself some of the mushy old salad. i walked begind drew and we made our way to his table and sat down. just when i thought i would finally be able to eat my food and be quiet, i felt a tap on my shoulder. "Star?" a familiar voice creaked. fuck. i knew who it was, and i did NOT want to turn around. WHO DO YOU GUYS THINK IT IS?!?! MUHUAHAHHA okay ill tell you .-. I forced myself to turn around and put on a fake smile. "Chelsea!" i mutered with my jaws clenched. "OMG Star! I haven't seen you since like, forever!" she snarled. "How have you been?!" she grabbed a piece of my hair and scrunched her nose when she
RIIIIIIIING RIIIIIIING. "shit." i puffed. "i'll see you at break." he held my hand until we had to let go. when i walked into class, everyone was staring at me. a girl passed a note to me, and a guy chuckled and stared. when i sat down, i opened the note. it read, "dont be fooled star. drew is a cheating,lying, mind messing bastard." did everyone in this room think drew was such a bad person? what did he ever do to them? the girl sitting next to me gave me another note. "dont trust him with your heart." what did these girls know? Drew was a sweet, loving guy and i would never let a guy treat me badly. these girls were just jealous i could get someone as amazing as Drew. i left it at that and ignored it for the rest of the 2 periods. Finally, break came and i hid behind the door again so Jack woudn't find me. finally when the coast was clear. i walked out and saw Drew. i smiled and he took my hand. "we are NOT ditching today." i laughed "i know, i know." he chuckled and kissed my cheek. he was literally the perfect guy. we walked down the empty hallway. or at least i though it was empty
the next morning, i woke up to a silent house. i took a wuick shower, and decided to wear my lucky poke-bra today. I put on a pair of distressed blue jeans, my black vans, my tribal tank crop top, all my handmade bracelts, a simple chain necklace, huge stud earrings, and my hair down with my spirit braid showing. i dragged myself to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and checked my weight. i slowly headed downstairs and decided not to eat breakfast because i had already brushed my teeth. so, i just sat there and quietly scrolled through instagram. i heard a buzz and checked my messages. "open your door." it was from drew. i quickly walked over to our plain red door and opened it. there in front of me, stood a smiling Drew, holding a bouquet of flowers and an index card with "will you go out with me?" written on it. i gasped. "yes!" i giggled. "really?" "yes yes yes!" i ran over and hugged him. this was beyond amazing. it was
Drew drove me home that night and gave my a kiss on the cheek goodnight. "i'll see you tommorow, okay?" we quickly exchanged numbers and i rushed inside. i tiptoed across the kitchen trying not to wake my parents. suddenly, the big chair in the living room turned around. there sat my dad in a robe with an angry face. "where the FUCK have you been?" he whispered loudly. "i was out with a friend." i murmured. "a friend? really Star? you want to fuck with me like that? TELL ME WHO THE FUCK YOU WERE WITH." his voice was becoming louder. my eyes shot straight to his hand where a bottle of jack daniels was and a cigarette in the other. "i was with my new friend. Dakota. we were at dennys." "you fucking worthless piece if shit. i know you're lying." he started walking towards me. "I'm not lying." my voice cracked. "get the fuck out of my face. i dont want to even look at a liar." he threw the bottle at the wall where the left overs of previous late night drinkings remained. "goodnight
i was dumbfounded. i just had my FIRST kiss with a guy i didn't even know. my first day of highshcool and i was already becoming a skanky whore. next thing you know, ill be losing my virginity to a guy i met at the gas station. i felt horrible. i looked at drew, and he stared back at me. even though it was wrong, i felt happy. i felt happy to be around him. i felt happy to be with him at the moment. he slowly wrapped his hands around mine and kissed my forehead. i know it was cliché and he probably has done it to hundreds of girls? but i still loved it. i still felt amazing inside. and i still felt that i woudnt trade anything for the moment i was having right now. we left after that and planned on going to six flags. when we got there, we payed for our tickets, got inside and literally went of everysingle ride in the entire park. it was probably one of the best days of my life. drew won a game and got me a teddy bear, which i though was absolutley adorable. somewhere in the middle of all the talking and walking around, we managed to slip our hands together. we were that cute couple walking aroud the amuzement park you always see in the movies. we got corton candy, and when the clock turned 5, we decided to go on our last ride. we agreed on riding the "extreme accelerator 4000" for the 6th time. this guy had a passion for rollercoasters as intense as i
3 and fourth period were math and science, and they were horrible. after what seemed like ages, the bell rang for lunch and everyone rushed out of the classroom. I looked around Drew, and spotted Jack looking for someone. shit. i ran back to the classroom and hid from him. i know what i was doing was rude, but i wanted to see Drew so badly. Finally, Jack put his down and left to go to the cafeteria. I slowly Peeked my head out and saw Drew standing next to the door. "Woah!" i jerke my head back. "i didnt see you there!" i laughed. Smiling, Drew said, "hey star.... i was wondering... i know you have never done this, and its quite bad, but i really like you. and i dont really want to stay here for the rest of the day. i wanted to get to know you more. maybe....we could dirch together?" he had a hopeful expressiom on his face. did he really want me to ditch with him? a girl he just met? "sure. why not? cuz YOLO right?" we laughed, and ran for the door. we snuck out, and drew pointed to a bright orange mustang. wow. we quietly got in, and quicky drove away. when we were out of shcool boundaries, i asked him if this was his car. "yep! you like it?" "i love it!" i turned on the radio and "skinny love" by bon iver was on. ( sorry guys i changed the year to 2012 xD ) i smiled. "so where to first?" "i was thinking about some lunch. in and out?" oooh i liked this guys taste in food. drew
When the bell rang for break, i didn't really know what to do. Everyone had already grouped up with someone except me. In my insane luck, as i stepped out of the door, i saw jack, walking out of a class. He smiled at me and started walking my way. "so how are you liking highshcool?" i decided not to lie-"it sucks." he laughed. "i know. tell me about it." so i did. "there's so much fucking homework-" shit. i just cussed. my dad said that in this shcool the rules were strict and that wasnt allowed. shit shit shit. did he hate me now? great way to ruin a friendship ,star. he smirked. "you dont think that i-" he pointed to himself. "i dont know..." i awkwardly answered. he laughed. "noooo! its fine! you dont think that any of us actually...'follow' the rules righy?" he laughed again and i joined in. "just making sure." As we got closer, i saw 2 tables with exactly 8 people each. 4 girls, 4 guys. Jack waved to the people in the first table and let me go in front of him. "This is my friend, Star, guys." i waved. awkwardly like always. they all laughed and said "welcome abord!" wow. these people were friendly. i wasnt used to that. as i sat down, i was able to catch a few glances at each
I bought the rest of my stuff that day and watched tv for the remaining hours of it. Today was the 6th. It was about 10 in the morning. Tommorow was the first day of highshcool. I dragged myself downstairs and made myself a bowl of Cheerios. Today I would be getting ready for tommorow. I wondered what highshcool was going to be like. 1MONTHS AFTER: "Drew...." i muttered. This was it. we were done. i didnt want to be with him anymore. "I love you." he whispered. what? no no no. my head started to spin. wait, WHAT? i looked at him. did he really just tell me he LOVES me? he cant do that to me. "i love you with every ounce of my rotten heart. i love your smile and i love you hair i love your laugh and i love your personality and i love your tatoo and i love your eyes and your clothes and your shoes and i love you. i love you star." he professed. i didnt know what to say. i started to blubber something i still dont remeber to this day. my head startes spinning faster and i coudnt see. no no NO! this had to had been a nightmare. I could feel Drew's arms wrap around my waist as he pulled me closer. i still coudnt say anything and all i did was stare into his eyes. he slowly and quietly started to lean in. his soft lips, collided with mine at the perfect moment at the perfect place. This was more than just a kiss. There was something more to it. I opened my eyes and sared into his beautiful, blue eyes. "I love you you Drew." i didnt know what to do. 1 month earlier BEEP BEEP BEEP Fuuuuuuck. I smacked my hands on my face. I coudnt believe the dreaded day had come. I uncovered myself from the thin layer of my blanket and walked to my closet. I kept pushing aside the thought of facing all those people and focused on getting dressed. I grabbed my button down green slik tank top tied in the front and grabbed a pair of DIY studded skinny jeans. I threw on a few
Day 2: The next day, Rebecca took me to the mall to buy new clothes. She was being suprisingly nice to me. But i mean, who am i kidding. It wasnt her money, not her car, and she doesnt have to psy for gas. Besides, she's also buying new clothes. As we walked through the glass doors, i froze. I HATED the mall. It was loud, expensive, and crowded. Its been years since i have been here. It all just brings back bad memories. I dragged myself to the center of the building where there was a direction guidence booth. Before we talked to the lady with the pink hair sitting in the booth, Rebecca pulled me over and took out a list with unmarked checkboxes next to each word. I quickly read the list. " 2 jeans / backpack / 2 pairs of sneakers / 10 shirts / 10 accesories / socks,bras,undies / makeup / shcool supplies " Wow. I havent been shopping like this in like....well never. I havent been to shcool for 6 years, i guess it was okay for me to splurge a little. "wow. thank you." i muttered. "dont get used to it." Rebecca stated with a stern expression. "Listen, you're going to go and buy everything you need, im giving you 500 bucks. leftover money is yours. meet me here in an hour. oh and by the way, next time your getting 500 bucks is when you go to college. your just lucky because your father got a raise. now go." she told me. As she left, i coudnt help but smile to myself. Today was going to be great. 500 dollars! in my world , thats like give someone a free car. When i was done laligaging about my money, i walked over to the lady with the pink hair and coudnt help but notice that she smelled like strawberries. "uhm, where can i purchase a pair of-" i looked down at my list, "sneakers?" She laughed. "Are you new here?" she smiled. it was a pretty smile. "no. i have been homeshcooled. She laughed again. "I suggest you buy a pair of Vans then hun." She showed me the directions to the store and smiled. "Good luck in highshcool." i smiled back and headed towards the shoe store. When i areived at the store, all i could was stare. There were shoes everywhere. on the floor, on racks, on the table and even on the